Owned

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Who am I now-

With only your memories

To hold me close again

You know it hurts inside

But darling I can’t lie

I’d rather live with the pain

Then live without anything

So long as it reminds me, of you

Just the way I’m made I guess

All heart and still a mess

Just the way you found me

Blood and tears on my sleeve

And a craving that keeps me

Hypnotized to love I’ve known         

Oh, your kiss stole my soul

But I don’t mind it at all, baby

Truth be told, even in silence

So long as you come in my dreams

Reminding me of all those times

We laid side by side at night

Nothing to cover us up

But our own moist whispers

And dim sighs …of moonlit kisses  

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Requisite

I walked in a million waves

That crashed on barren beaches

Waiting to be quenched- once  

Finding only remnants of lives

I lived but inside secret dreams  

And I bore a thousand sunburns

Standing next to you but you

Were just some passing moon

I believed was sent to guide me

Eventually, I came to realize

You’re not the source I’ve needed

And my life grew darker- again

It’s defeating when even lies, lie

But you believe them…to survive

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Penrose  

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There was a shift in our universe

Its appearance was even dimmer

Music became indistinguishable

We both noticed but said nothing

I believed instinctively we knew

More and more effort was required

As we tried to recapture that- us

First, I thought it was me being off

Then I thought it was really you  

I was right in part on both counts

But not for the reasons concluded

Turns out, we were really good at 

Misleading each other; survivalist

Truth was, we never really had … us

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 Oxidative   

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Late afternoon icy rains

Western caustic wind blows

Sound of the mountain train

Heading back down the tracks

Strangely I ponder to myself

If you’re seated by a window

Looking out as you leave- here

My candles flicker in a silence

I stare out my fogyish window

Praying I see your returning face

But it just gets darker with time

Yet I only feel a bit colder inside   

Still wishing I alone was enough  

Keep you from… leaving me sigh  

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Oddities

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We swam within the same gulf

Of darkness and inner solitude  

Until life threw us both together

I saw hope in your eyes reflecting

Somehow that drew us even closer   

It was the warmth of you I loved

Until you turned dark and frigid

Then, I settled for your coldness

Fragments of what we once were

Now in your absence, I’ve nothing

But mere traces of your memories

I sew together, make them tangible

That one day I may well use them

To escape madness of … your love

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Unreel  

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Envisioning fairytale ending torments

No matter how much I over-practice

It’s never easy once you know its over

Sometimes it feels like falling upwards

Trying to find a way to hold, letting go

All I ever wanted to remain was simply

Fitted in your arms under moonlit nights

Scent of trust lingering in a breeze passing     

Living love endlessly- in stolen moments

The one’s life doesn’t really take notice of

The ones that keep me awake cold sober

The ones that starve this burning fervor

The ones that haunt a heart laying alone

The ones killing me slowly with… hope

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Surrenders

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At times- sorrow is all I have

Missing you is an understatement

I’ve never before admitted this  

Once an hour I lose my breath

As I drown in thoughts of you

Sometimes I let your memories

Capture me and hold me…under

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Facetiously

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Baby, I know you get angry

And say things you don’t mean

So, if you’re really going to go

I won’t hold you back, but

Just kiss my last breath away

Give me that as a last memory

But before you leave me here

Save me that pain and misery

We both know what will follow

Don’t make my heart bleed out

Don’t make me suffer forever

Don’t make my tears a river

Don’t make me beg for a mercy

That only makes me feel … unloved

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Moot

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Broken notes play in my soul

I walk past the grey-filled window

Wind is blowing snowflakes hard  

And I can feel the added chills

Almost- as if they were waiting

The winter sun isn’t shing, anymore

I stumble down a silent hall  

Then I halfheartedly sit on the bench  

I tease ivory keys that tease my heart

Honestly, I never did learn to play

Sometimes life gets in the way

But that ain’t my excuse, anymore

I feel the notes touch, I feel the words

I’m not sure what that’s worth

I could write a million sad songs

But really what’s the use now

After love ran out- a lifetime ago

And loves warmth turn cold, anymore

They claim, life is like is like a stage

We’re all just substitute characters  

We make up our own lines and lies  

And all of us must play our roles

No matter how the dice is rolled

But I just don’t feel like it… anymore

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Decouple

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Sometimes looking into a mirror

Is scarier than who looks back

In the fog of love, hope believes

I’m not into drawn out goodbyes  

But I’m accepting everything- us

Has become our everything wrong

I assure you, it’s not easy at all

You do deserve a very happy life

But my darling, I know I do too

So, I’m honestly looking forward

By letting go of the past and you

Without having to fight each other

We’ve done more than enough of that

It’s time we go and live love… right  

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