Category: break-ups

Continuity

I still go trek on our old walks

Some habits are hard to break

Albeit some of the streetlamps

Have burned out- some flicker

As the cold snow feels the same  

Whenever it lands upon my lips

At times I deliberately imagine

Me stepping in your old tracks

My futile attempt to feel closer

In all honestly, it never works     

Only venturing out in darkness

As it feels a bit more welcoming   

Kind of like befriending another

Loneliness is our… association

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Oxidation

Seasons come, and seasons go

But the real kind of love- won’t

Actions do speak louder than words

But all I see is rejection at its worst

It’s said: that faith can move mountains

Can’t make your heart move anymore

Remember you and I were inseparable

All we’ve become is more unpredictable                      

What is this space growing between us?

Feeling a million miles away is evidence

And it’s only getting longer by the days

Has someone else become me in your sleep?

I can’t tell if you faked your love and attention

Or just regret knowing me…in the first place

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Predawn

I could only manage the courage to leave you

Just a little note, sort of speak

Maybe more of a request as I still remember to breathe

Truth be told, it can get any worst- can it?

Darling- I need you to break my heart again

So, I know that I’m still living outside what I’m sensing

Somewhere here in this universe that is still twirling

Let the pain refresh your words and do their worse

Instead of all the ugly things I keep thinking

Deep inside my dark broken mind of confusion

Instead of feeling tossed away like an ocean wave      

In a sea of memories that are haunting me- in every moment

Break me down into sorrow one last time     

Do it before the next sunrise … of truth is born

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Musical truths

Each new day feels a little more damaged

Our casual has taken on a whole new meaning

Leaving me to feel a little bit more empty

But the world still turns around and around

Truth be told you and I should really be over

Let’s be honest we’ve got nothing new to offer

The same ole same has grown into a secret pain

I’m missing others that could make all that change

We’re too young to make each other seem so old

I’ve grown tired of pulling off the same dirt road

Where we hide inside each other like addicts

You dump me back off at life like childish antics

All our best times have already been left wasted  

I’m starting to see you’ll never be… who I need

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Contresens

I never could read the hidden signs

Predicated on wishful illusions

They became circles and lines

Written in the wrong languages  

But I know where I’ve been

And I’ve been down this path before

Far too many times for counting

Walking in wet muddy boots

In another unwanted midnight rain

With teardrop stains on my heart

By now you’d think I could do this blind

Why does the past drag me back here?

Make me wander aimlessly around?

Haven’t I suffered enough…by now?  

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Found

I’ve swam in course guilty rivers

Not because it was ever deserved  

Love risk suffering for loved ones

Or beaten against cynical boulders

That refused me any sort of refuge

And I swallowed the bitter bubbles

Of caustic and manipulative ploys

As you marginalized my held hope

One day you’d feel my love’s value    

But my worth got lost to teardrops  

That fell into the cold truth currents    

As you stood deaf and about faced

My fear imagined the darker finale

Until my love saved me… from you

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Changing landscapes

In a micro-moment everything changes

What was found is now disappearing

Everything you’ve trusted is broken

Maelstrom of thoughts and emotions

Come and go like the sun and moon

Chasing one another for protection  

There’s no time for any time-outs

You’re either all in or all tapped out

Like a battle zone on your battered heart

Nowhere left to run or go- but down  

And too faithful to flee to save yourself

On foggy fields of dreams created by hope          

All you want now is silence and a home

All you’re living now…is chaos alone

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Poet of the Light © 2023

Battle tempered

Like a shadow of who I once was

I’ll walk along my empty shores

In the twilight hours of times before

Gathering empty shells of dreams

Left in the wake of ugly betrayals

That nearly drowned me repeatedly  

I’ve stepped past the ghost of my hurt

That plagued me for too many years

Through my heart still feel the scars

That still hungers for- a love unfound      

Where I can practice all, I’ve learned    

To feel the warmth of love in my arms

While I’m clutched in her guiding hands

Teaching me to trust love… once again

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Disintegrated

My mind does try to understand

All things my emotions just can’t

Like why my heart wants to forgive

But still feels too broken down yet

It favors I surrender and let you go

With all this pain you’ve called love

My soul believes were heading for

A crash much worse than all this

Heartaches aren’t worth the trouble

Let’s stop pretending their normal

I’m so far from everything I’ve wanted

And sometimes I may feel I deserve it

Broken hearts cling to a glimmer of hope

One day someone will love us…anyway

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Crestfallen

I’ve spent my full lifetime

Trying to express what’s inside me

You dismiss me like I’m worth nothing

But can you tell me where you were  

During the times of my darkest hours

When I was alone broken and hiding

Misunderstood, deep inside myself

From dark people like you’ve become

Pray tell, who would’ve thought

That the people I loved the most

Would become my darkest storms

How could I scar those I deeply love

And still lived with what I’d done

I’d rather live inside…my silence   

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