Hard way

  I didn’t listen all that much as a child  
 “Don’t touch that” too late! painful lesson
 That’s me, following my heart elsewhere   
 I knew I was edging over that threshold  
 Tempting fate, maybe foolishly even God  
 Against my inner voice, against all odds
 I persisted, after all, that's how love works
 I’d push until the world pushes me back  
 It premeditates past humanized boundaries  
 Defies all the best of logic and reasonings
 Comes on like a tsunami out of nowhere
 On a clear blue skyline, then just, becomes  
 Love- my greatest of gambles and of losses
 I should know, I have the scars to prove it
 Hey, what can I say, I’m human...and a poet  
 
 
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True to fault

Searching for a story without an end
My heart got caught up in a synopsis
I knew my role foretold a pending hell
Being a messenger...instead of the hero


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Failings

I’m sorry, so very sorry 
I couldn’t be all those things
You wanted me to be, and still be me
Can you really look me in eyes;
And tell me you’re surprised?
Know it hurts me just as painfully
Even to think that I somehow
I’ve let you down, in both our minds
I’m sorry, so very sorry
But my heart can’t forgive
You wanting someone else
And still expecting me to hang around
Just in case you change your mind
I’m still breaking down inside
No- I’m sorry, so very sorry
I can’t live up to your dark expectation
My heart won’t let that happen
And over time this pain might subside
But I won't change my mind
Baby- this is goodbye
I’m sorry, so very sorry
Of how love needs to be...for me

Poet of the Light © 2020



Selective matter

Oh- those happenstance meetings
Akin, how scraped paper does float
Landing most abruptly place to place
Sometimes only but for a moment
Others, seemingly more indefinitely
Ever subject to unseen changing winds
And merciless unpredictable weather
We skid, slid, bounce and smash into
The ruins of shattered broken things
Tossed away when no longer palatable
We epitomize those roles- as people
Like beloved paper hearts, disowned
Ripped out from love's used booklet
Tumbling blind into multiple of lives
In remote or other exotic destinations
Sometimes we go unnoticed and still
Others, we’re centric of their crises
Swept up against some preverbal fence
Someway we mesh, near seamlessly
Forgetting we’re still used paper hearts
As if somehow we’d always been there
Amidst a dark background of silence
Caught up on some bits and fragments
But of someones else's broken pieces
Hearts, dreams or within turbulence
Suddenly you’ve come front and center
As your unwantedness eases away
You’re feeling that renewed worth
And that comfortableness starts to fit
Forgetting still our own vulnerability
And our former past life of events
We laugh and embrace the sun rays
Enjoy those brief scattered showers
The pleasing scent of spring flowers
Life- has never felt like such a blessing
And just like that, we’re uprooted
Cruel reminds of our ended season
Time has past as we were oblivious
And now we’re back traversing again
To those former roles as, paper hearts
Unneeded, tumbling while...withering

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Forswear

I could unwantonly reside without you
If that is the tomorrow I’m bequeathed
Though it would be most bleak, at best
I’d refuse acceptance of the cold ambiance
Know darkness could never replace you
Nor could it ever become my friend
We’d be more like armistice adversaries
Coexisting only for the sake of silence
My sanity would surely be overly taxed
My heart- withering in desolate winds
Not even the Ravens would dare visit
Out of fear of getting lost in my madness
A man, an island to himself...still in love


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Natural selection

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I’m trying to hold on
But these winds are so strong
I hope you can protect me
Soon
They say it's all an illusion
But they’re not listening
I’m falling
Oh no-
Cynical reactions
Never could save anyone
I’m at mercy of the breeze
Help me
It looks frightening
This giant mirror below
On this water, I’m alone
Spinning
Current situations bleak
My life tree lost me
I’m floating too fast
I’m soaked
Rolling beneath the surface
Ripples are now churning
I can’t hear myself think
Drowning
It's almost over
One final plunge
The underworld is ugly
I’m...gone


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Subdued scars

Scarlet laced indigo color skies
Reminding me of our time
When fire burned in your eyes
And I was your reasons why

Seasonal snowflakes falling
As I walk along a cold waterside
Of what was once our paradise
Before your passion for me- died

Sleepless nights, our lost legacy
Leaving me to question everything
You’ve ever said to me
Since I realized, baby- you lied

Now he listens to every word of you
And the sun leaves in a silent betrayal...too

Poet of the Light © 2020


Spinning wheels

A thousand why’s
Run through my mind
It's a storm I can’t control
I know, even if I tried


I step back from the picture
Trying to understand better
But all I find are more questions
And never any real answers


Why oh why- like a song
Confusion goes on
I want to run to nowhere
But nowhere is already right here


I hear you talking
But I no longer understand
Its as if, I heard the same thing
Far too many times to listen


You never seem to hear me
I see your eyes rolling
So I roll mine and shake my head
This just ain’t right, no more


This is a paradise for the insane
And I no longer want to remain
So don’t be a fool
And ask me, why oh why, baby


You drove me crazy
Now you’re driving me away
And all I can feel now is
I’m happy and...I’m free



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Prologues

I know nothing of love
Or of its great attributes
With such magic to push
And pull at will the seas
Nor its powers to move
Mountains and mankind
How its born from merely
Sparked wisp like feelings
Nor of its great romances
That transcends our times
I know nothing in the likes
Of a rescuing human love
Nor its awe healing abilities
In unconditional forgiveness
Or how it can dispel longings
Of ones hearts burning desire
I do however know of almost
Lovers in my versed tragedies
Steeped in waters I’ve waded
Authentic attempts to...find love


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