Tidbits of a Tuscan colored sun Adorn the wintry gray horizon Beset by a most dividing pall haze As ghostly clouds and wild fog Chase one another in mere silence Providing them rhythm and reason True to life and their own nature I strive to rediscover for myself Since absence of loves presence I’ve transformed into loneliness And became too accustomed to These caustic cold breeze kisses Playing havoc on my numb cheeks Liken a tall oak tree, overburdened Dew can still seep down my face Transplanted in some remote forest For all the broken, lost or unwanted Where few visit or care of recovery Caught between life and hibernation My frayed heart awaits... rejuvenation Poet of the Light © 2021
Category: depression
Sifted
Thought I heard you next to me talking But it was just foolish thunder rumbling Cruelly waking me from a beautiful dream Where you and I painted secrets of love In a universe of of whispers and touch I sat there alone- in floods of lightning And felt my hope brake and slowly fleet Into the shadows of what will never be As drops slipped down my window panes My soul overflowed from… dark realities Poet of the Light © 2020
If-
If I was worth Quiet evening of simple things Wouldn’t you be here Doing just that by now? If I was worth Your amazing inspiration Wouldn't you be here Doing just that by now? If I was worth Intimate walks along the ocean Wouldn’t you be here Doing just that by now? If I was worth Time for casual conversation Wouldn’t you be here Doing just that by now? If I was worth A hearty meal laced in laughters Wouldn’t you be here Doing just that by now? If I was worth Your unbiased understanding Wouldn't you be here Doing just that by now? If I was worth Your earnest warm embrace Wouldn’t you be here Doing just that by now? If I was worth Making mistakes and forgiveness Wouldn't you be here Doing just that by now? If I was worth Anything for you to hold onto Wouldn’t you be here Doing just that by now? If I was worth Being loved honestly by you Wouldn't you be here Doing just that by now? Where are you… now? Poet of the Light © 2020
Pet shell
Like the tone of your voice Sifted through those fissures Of my heart, word by word As I laid face-down in the earth Reawakening my life once again Which in turn, caused me to feel Reverberation of my heartbeats One after another and becoming Like oxygen for my wakening soul And I believed love was knocking Then I answered- by opening me Now, all I hear are those lost echoes I now drown myself in sound of ...oceans Poet of the Light © 2020
Heartfalls
The river below has slowed its flow Covering its banks at night in fog Geese are passing through Winter must be coming The sun has waned in its duty Winds have stopped whining Solace is seeking its rest again And you know, I was almost used to Sitting here alone- in my silence Recognizing my predicament But like a rogue freight train You- became a loud summer glint As if a lost whisper returning Reflecting, living so wildly free And in that way, you brought me hope Oh the mountain trembled, a bit I hadn't felt that in such a long while It was an unsuspecting rush Flushing through my whole body You were waking the sleepy me up From a complicit dream of slumber And you always seemed to know Exactly what's on my mind In much so- sometimes I wondered If you were just some fragment Of myself, lost to a past life Or perhaps, its wandering ghost Trying to tell me something Something, that I may have forgotten Something, I’m yet to discover I have no idea- truth be told What you’re really think or believe You hide now, a shadow, inside your life Slowly going further away from me Someplace I can’t see or be And now, suddenly somehow You’ve become part of the mystery That kept me in this distance Just when I'm getting that feeling Of wholeness, was still possible It seemed I was on the cusp Of learning- a great something That’s now getting lost Inside all passing moments While I’ve been pushed down From my grand summit of old Left to sit in my silence once again Where time alone taught me Between the slides and heartaches Was what I finally came to realize, is We’re just colliding mountainside mirages That broke free from our life… for a second Poet of the Light © 2020 We are crumbling pyrite...
Ageless
Under familiar skylines Where waves do linger Standing on the shore Of our lost yesterdays Without any thought And from time to time Liken a child catches Sweet blown kisses I grasp out at the wind And listen carefully Hoping that I’ll find One of your whispers Love of your heart has Sent out just for… me Poet of the Light © 2020
Unsuitable
They were bright colorful threads Emitting from the core of my soul But you strained them all beyond Their fraying strength; they broke Until they were jumbled fragments To you, they were merely words You converted into a big joke And my heart, a laughing stock Causing my love to easily loosen That grip of that fabric, you were One little simple stitch at a time Dragging along, as unwantedness In dirt and far behind, your shadow Then fallen off and away I stayed Becoming lost from your… forever Poet of the Light © 2020
At play
Beset in a human type of spindrift Silent acts of flapping, fleeting caws Dawn gently melts away a rolling fog As night temptingly slips off it’s drape I feel on my skin the chilly air, breathe As my weary mind wanders aimlessly To recall all of your missed touches Spoken words of love and their hope We are those children no more, sadly Angelical face of such sweet promise Gone now, there- beyond that great pall Shivers race feverishly through my soul And I further wonder again to myself; Would you return, if you really could, To me, my heart, my arms as it once was, Or would you remain- my lost forever? Oh how my tears even fear your thoughts And reluctantly fall- away from me too Now only my shattered dark emotions Will share their seasons… without you Poet of the Light © 2020
Heartland
I’ve been down this road a time or two before Between the shadows of death and life itself Feeling that breeze of absence, push against me Like some nefarious ghost trying to sabotage hope Slowing my approach, that's heading off to unknowns Stepping back in muddy tracks, I’ve laid previously Before falling off that deceptive precipitous cliff Yet, once again in an earnest and blinded effort Compelled to chase behind the same sun and moon Like some shared, dutiful shadow, in search of What hasn’t been found in a wayfarers clock face That own but a limited life's without a restart A place never known nor seen before in this life Yet, calls to an embedded fire in his heart That's lays beyond the pall of human perception Where mind, body and soul are elucidated, as one Erasing all scars and pain of every operose step Replacing failed loves, broke and shattered To reach and live- in love's … welcomed arms Poet of the Light © 2020
Truth doesn’t lie
The sun has broken another horizon and the light doesn’t play favorites I’ve been up all night, once again discerning just what is really best I know I seem different somehow maybe because I’m wearing sadness And yes, that’s shadows in my eyes that I just can’t seem to hide, anymore It’s why it’s so hard to face you now that alone makes me, feel like crying Words just seem so hard to find in moments like this here- this time But words will never change the time of doing what has to feel like is right Me- being a storm of loves disaster instead of your, welcome sunshine Girl, I think we really always knew somehow deep on our hearts mind And we were just playing along filling up empty time in our lives I think we’ve both learned hard what love is, and this really isn’t it Mending those pieces of ourselves as we slowing relearned, acceptance But- I just have to save my heart from making another broken mess Saying goodbye, always hurts but I know, right now it’ll hurt less So- I leave you here alone today instead of waiting, any longer, girl until you do it, in some… tomorrow Poet of the Light © 2020
