Category: awakening
Disintegrated
My mind does try to understand
All things my emotions just can’t
Like why my heart wants to forgive
But still feels too broken down yet
It favors I surrender and let you go
With all this pain you’ve called love
My soul believes were heading for
A crash much worse than all this
Heartaches aren’t worth the trouble
Let’s stop pretending their normal
I’m so far from everything I’ve wanted
And sometimes I may feel I deserve it
Broken hearts cling to a glimmer of hope
One day someone will love us…anyway
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Poet of the Light © 2022
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Fiery
Grief is more than an emotional rabbit hole
It becomes a state of awareness all its own
Similar to living in multi-dimensional space
Where life as we know it altered- out of sync
It’s a mutual wound ripped clear to our soul
Defying logic, conventional wisdom, and love
Where we will often question our own sanity
A cold darkness that may affect almost anyone
Anyone- who dares love by a divine conviction
And yet, our love for others is what sustains us
Even though we will suffer in profound ways
As the world at large fails to comprehend this
Making us feel lonelier on our lonesome journey
Through a dark pathway into… a promised Light
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Poet of the Light © 2022
Cherishment
How selfish it feels to still suffer
During these inconvenient moments
Of seasonal holiday celebrations
When all the others are laughing
Creating their new joyous memories
Pigeonholing our beloved departed
Yet, try as I might to join in with them
I’m innately compelled to sequester myself
Fall in pensive thoughts of the lost ones
To the point, my scarred soul hurts
My heart flutters at an anxious pace
While my mind is picturing memories
That for me- can never be replaced
By new moments over…beloved yesterdays
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Poet of the Light © 2022
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Sehnsuct
Most of my life I’ve waffled amongst
Pleasure, grief, or just unhappiness
But joy, in its truest sense of the word
Has always been rare and fleeting
At a very young age, I recognized this
And try as I might to explain it to others
My words often fell upon cynical ears
Love cannot exist without pure joy
That x factor lives outside our control
Yet, we can help heighten it for others
But never for ourselves, authentically
Today I’ve realized all my lack of joy
Is not of my doing or failures in life
Joy comes in due time… by special delivery
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Poet of the Light © 2022
Broad strokes
The morning is cold and gray
Feels like winter is on its way
Spring and summer are memories
And there’s a hollowness inside
Echoing back things about my life
I’m missing chances I let slip away
These echoes are reminding me
Not to waste another fragile day
Yet I still don’t know what to do
But chase after rainbows I can’t see
Slaying windmills found in my way
Looking for where I truly belong
Scarred, tired, and barely hanging on
I’m a man you’d have to love… blindly
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Poet of the Light © 2022
Alacrity
Nothing about love is negative
Those platitudes are merely myths
To get you to capitulate yourself
To neurotic whims of someone else
Those who have needs to manipulate
Love is a gift they can’t appreciate
Love flows in abundance naturally
Around the bends and sprawls out
It churns in-depth and even falls
Out of nowhere in faraway places
It is fierce and gentle all at once
Silky and soothing with its touch
Love ushers out no waves of regret
Love is the exception… in everything
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Poet of the Light © 2022
Unfolding realities
Narcissists are naturally cunning
Even factoring in being forgiven
Into the fabric of nefarious plans
And before enacting their deeds
Upon those, they will victimize
We should oblige them- just once
Proving to ourselves that we can
But void of any remorseful actions
We must avoid becoming complicit
By letting them convict themselves
Next time they trespass boundaries
As they utter forgiveness platitudes
We end all our further interactions
Because narcissists…evade change
Poet of the Light © 2022
Risen
I twas but as fictional as
Any other from my birth
Who acquiesced to my life
In what little I deciphered
Till finding my true nature
Hidden deep within myself
Raw, vulnerable, and naive
Same way we’re all created
Emotional and intellectual
Uncouth and soulfully naked
Unknown and undamaged
Only to be bent and broken
We’re dammed and innocent
We are faithful… and forgiven
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Poet of the Light © 2022
Peregrination
Living for the observed sake
Of being an active resistance
Is not at all life as intended
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Far too often we’re complicit
In all the creation of illusions
Mesmerizing our full attention
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From birth- we are set forth
Upon our perilous pathway
To discover our true inner self
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We will be broken and scarred
Our hearts and beliefs, shattered
And some of us will surrender
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I have my sacred mission instilled
I am duty-bound to its… fulfillment
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Poet of the Light © 2022
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