Category: heartstrings
Exposed
I’m steeped in pure triage
My mind racing nowhere
My heart dragging behind
Like some fatuous stranger
I see life through a prism
That’s a shattered cloud
Pulled in every direction
Except the one I need now
Most of me wants to flee
But there’s nowhere to go
I could run in blind circles
Knowing that path so well
Only to end up back to here
A storm’s vulnerable… center
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Poet of the Light © 2021
Heaviness
It’s honestly bewildering
I’ve traversed here before
I thought I was prepared
Yet, I’m still being startled
As I’m getting ambushed
Akin some thief in a night
Stepping out of some fog
Surprisingly weaponized
By sorrow and wet guilt
By the things I should’ve
By the things I would’ve
By the things I could’ve
By the things I just didn’t
By the fact that …it’s too late
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Poet of the Light © 2021
Suffocating
It’s brazened and extremely evil
The way grief creeps into our lives
Only to extinguish love before us
It’s terrifying- losing a loved one
Knowing within our broken hearts
There’s really nothing we can do
Nothing within our fixed power
To undo, the vast wreckage we feel
In our minds, souls, or lost words
We gag and choke on its sour truth
Longing to save a part of our heart
Because we’re lesser- without them
Guilt yokes us in an apathetic fashion
Adding to our raw bleeding… wounds
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Poet of the Light © 2021
Deficit
I catch myself randomly
Like some obscure camera
Stepping out of my moment
Examining if this is reality
This most destructive change
It doesn’t seem like it’s real
Perhaps denial is toying with me
Perhaps wishful thinking lives
Despite the cold truth of logic
My heart is now burdened with
When I sleep, I can dream again
Of our yesterdays and laughter’s
Where possibilities are endless
Where my prayers… are answered
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Poet of the Light © 2021
Transferred
I stare out- into space listening to
Platitudes of fabricated sentiments
By those who’ve never felt anything
Especially anyone else’s torrid pain
You brought color to my whole life
Before you twas only black and white
I was amazed and thanked God too
The color has now faded in my days
I walk blindless in some form of haze
Even the nights have muted in silence
I no longer see this trail out before me
Nor do I know just where it’s heading
Life’s landscape has become so different
I’m in route to a place I’ve … never been
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Poet of the Light © 2021
Unprepared
After taking your last breath
I felt overwhelmed by reality
My world darkened in silence
My tears spoke what I couldn’t
How small and orphaned I feel
As if I’m mistakenly left behind
In but a foreign land of strangers
My shallowed breathes erupted
By fear, denial, guilt, and sorrow
I’m broken, wounded, bleeding
From every fiber of my existence
I’ve unwantonly been changed
Most significant person to me
Taken from my future’s… fingers
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Poet of the Light © 2021
As of this morning, my precious daughter walks with God.
Categorically
Where dawns and sunsets live to die
Where seagulls fly indiscriminately
Where fishes promise perpetual life
Where explosions produce free stars
Where clouds evade any interference
Where ocean waves find sandy rest
Where a moon and nights harmonize
Where breezes land like lose feathers
Where footprints are washed away
Where dreams are launched in skies
Where salt fragments soften rigidity
Where a lone flowers love beautifies
Where eager prayers await answers
Where memories of you… live forever
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Poet of the Light © 2021
Abstract
This perpetual pathway of bygones
I’ve never viewed it as courageous
At times it comes to mind as lifelong
In part, why would I, it’s unwanted
To have what is so sacred- shattered
Loving and caring so intensely deep
About those that may not reciprocate
Then to have it all abruptly disturbed
As if tripped over unseen suffrage itself
Feeling violated, stripped of all dignity
Stumbling blindly in a wicked darkness
Left in some nearly abandoned reality
Appearing to come to terms with change
Of my losses and new inner brokenness
Wearing a pejorative as “one of them”
That only adds to an unearned shame
Then drenched in cursory of platitudes
Others say to alleviate their obligation
Defying all their micro cues cold truth
That oft seem to deepen a pains coulee
As I crawl silently past life’s finalities
One grey clutched fist of dust at a time
I thirst for an understanding and relief
Lord, when will we speak…Cor ad Cor?
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Poet of the Light © 2021
Daddy’s girl
If only my emotions
Weren’t tied to my heart
If only God could hear
All my unspoken words
If only each of my tears
Weren’t loves silent prayers
If only I could just lie
And have it become truth
If only I had some magic wand
That changed lives for both of us
If only heaven was our world
You’d better forever my dear
Wish I could feel your whispers
Like butterfly kisses…again
Love Daddy
a/k/a Poet of the Light © 2021
Whispers of a poet's heart 