Victor’s

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(When you find the courage to forgive the world, you must also forgive yourself.)

Finally, after all this time

We are here, face to face in truth

Smiling at this opportunity

Look how far we traveled broken

Separated by unfair circumstances

Neither of us could control , but we tried

One of us was always- letting go

Trying to keep those battle scars whole

Trying to survive, trying to do right

And here we are now in triumph

There is nothing needing to deny- anymore

It is our time to reconnect as we once were

We have been waiting to live love

My mind and heart have overcome… reunited

Connectively

There is no way to reach you connectively

Though you have had a profound effect on me

And while I know it was not all our fault

I have still forgiven everything- anyway

You reside inside another realm

Someplace I cannot afford to be part of

Even though it breaks my heart- in two

It is ok, I love you from my soul- anyway

I had hoped so much more for both of us

There was so much more we could have been

But life and time can be cruel teachers

I will cherish all the good times we shared

In reflection of my eye, I see shadows of our past

You will always be my brother… anyway

Taxis

These sonnets akin to my leaves

Written words by a voice in me

Slowly I’ve resigned to let go

Of my untold stories, I know

Some are written by my pain

Some are written for a change

Some are written in my blood

Some are written just because

Some are written by my shame

Some are words I can’t explain

Some are written in my tears

Some took me many of years

Everything comes in due time

My soul… whispers their flight

Deveations

Early- long before daybreak

I pack up my backpack daily

And head out to the waterside

Toting along my folding chair

I stroll until somehow- I know

I’ve found my true vantage spot

Set up an umbrella and my chair

Put on my sunglasses and hat

Then stare, at the bands of waves

Rushing towards shore- all-day

I see the prismatic flashes wink

Just before disappearing beneath

The surface of what used to be

Before the water had become… frozen

Convolution

I know things do change

And I used to worry about it

Permanence was my balance

But I stopped noticing days

There’s only two that remain- vital

The day when you were born

And the day I lost you from here

When bruises covered my heart

I pretend to recover somewhat

But the truth is, the hurt- goes on

There are times I can’t speak

My words are afraid at what I might say

They know I won’t hold back any longer

I can’t be broken down… any lower

Connectivenss

I know deep in my heart

She’ll be the one to come

As easy as a prismatic dawn

Delicate and precious

Like she’s always been

God’s perfect angel

She’ll heal me- in a breath

With her divine touch

Whispering love to my heart

As her grin makes all the difference

And heaven’s gates open up

As we stroll side by side, in step

Over the threshold of life

Daddy and daughter hand in hand…again

Love overcomes

I walked out before daylight

There was a chill- in the air

Step by step I thought to myself

What happens if no one cares?

Somewhere off in the distance

I swear I heard some whispers

I could see across the vast horizon

As the sun slowly inched near

But somewhere in the zephyrs

Were those drifting echoes of words

I thought it was rain but was only dew

Trying to collect my full attention

I stared up at the twinkling stars

Wonder a bit more in the dark

I never felt alone in all this time

But something deep inside me broke

As a tear raced down my cheek

I felt my soul inside- give a sigh

Brightness of the dawn overcame

Everything including my sight

There was no way I could see

But in all that ethereal brilliance

I felt a Holy presence- embrace me

And all my questions dissipated

It seemed to have lasted only a minute

I noticed most of the day had gone on by

I was confused as it left me far behind

I stood all that time- in the same place

And that light gently slipped away

Night had come into its silent space

Then- those echoes returned again

And I understood… what they meant

Assets

Predominantly speaking

I’m an understanding man

But sometimes I’m ridged

When I expect from others

Things they have promised

I abhor if pledges are broken

Before any real effort is made

To suggest some alternative

That I’d be willing to accept

In place of what isn’t delivered

But if nothing was ever offered

It’s disrespectful and cowardice

And then I’ll always remember

Your words are… meaningless

Reservedly

I do openly admit to selfishness

Not all my life has been so dark

Or series of misery after another

I’ve had my cherishable moments

In relationships, and successes

And because I so treasure them

I’ll rarely share them with others

They serve in part as beacons of hope

When all else seems to go wrong

They remind me of the possibilities

When I feel closed in by my walls

They are lifelines in human storms

That helps to maintain my sanity

They’ll be here… as comforting stars

Brainless

Did I look like a scarecrow

Whispers and wishes like cobwebs in my head

Who would’ve known, until it was far too late

After letting down my walls

After letting you get too close

Somehow, I know I should’ve known

I should’ve recognized the shadow

Standing on my own- darkness

I trusted, everything once again

Like the fool, I’ve always been

Whenever it came- to finding love

But finding I can still get broken

Who could’ve known

You had a hybrid heart… of deception

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