Too good

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Like magic  

We were there  

Where love lives forever 

Inside each other’s hearts 

For unknown reasons we got scared  

So, we ran away from each other 

And the magic disappeared  

But never left our hearts  

How I dream of us then 

How I dream of there   

I wish I didn’t regret  

I wish we had it again  

I wish you still loved me like that  

Cause my love…came back  

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Ink blots

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Like a young naïve sparrow  

A magnet for who gets hurt  

They say I am being foolish  

I always give them a chance  

And see who treats me right  

But so far all I have learned  

Is coldness of a dead hearts  

I know the death of my trust 

And just how long it takes  

To recover back into this life 

And the rust of their words 

Sill leaves a taste of bitterness  

Remnant gifts of their dark love  

When shadows finally…move on  

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Chilling currents

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So far and yet so close  

There in your final dark hour 

I could feel the heart of my soul 

Being rented from its place  

And I know, it will never heal  

Like emptiness echoes breathless 

Everything drowns in the silence   

I am sometimes haunted by the sounds 

That I will not hear aloud- anymore  

And the cold is as close as I can get  

To touch something in the present  

Something in the stillness of the air  

Where my wishes and prayers- linger  

Love is just incapable of… shutting off

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Misty notes

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I’d watch my breath- dissipate  

As I sat out in the twilight fog 

The burbling brook playing notes  

Shivering myself near half dead  

Memories and emotions burned on  

Whispering thoughts of you in the air  

Secretly praying you’d get them  

Hopefully, before they lose their way  

No one ever mattered as much as you 

I always thought you were an angel  

And if I were to tell the gospel truth  

It is a hell of a thing to lose- as a human    

I can see the colors of dawn coming on  

I really could use a warm hug… love me

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Used to believe

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Thought I was running away from you 

I just ran from what you do- to me  

Until one day my weary shadow  

Finally took the time to tell me the truth  

I was running from myself  

And everything I could become  

Running from the illusion I thought I was 

But mostly, everything I never could be   

Believing only in others’ make-believe   

Believing that I was never good enough  

Believing in all the shameful ugliness  

Like- I could never be loved 

Now I fully understand, I’m better than that  

And today I love me… just as I am   

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Connectively

There is no way to reach you connectively   

Though you have had a profound effect on me 

And while I know it was not all our fault 

I have still forgiven everything- anyway  

You reside inside another realm   

Someplace I cannot afford to be part of  

Even though it breaks my heart- in two  

It is ok, I love you from my soul- anyway 

I had hoped so much more for both of us 

There was so much more we could have been   

But life and time can be cruel teachers  

I will cherish all the good times we shared   

In reflection of my eye, I see shadows of our past  

You will always be my brother… anyway

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Taxis

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These sonnets akin to my leaves

Written words by a voice in me

Slowly I’ve resigned to let go

Of my untold stories, I know

Some are written by my pain

Some are written for a change

Some are written in my blood

Some are written just because

Some are written by my shame

Some are words I can’t explain  

Some are written in my tears

Some took me many of years

Everything comes in due time

My soul… whispers their flight 

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Deveations

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Early- long before daybreak

I pack up my backpack daily

And head out to the waterside

Toting along my folding chair

I stroll until somehow- I know

I’ve found my true vantage spot

Set up an umbrella and my chair

Put on my sunglasses and hat

Then stare, at the bands of waves

Rushing towards shore- all-day                  

I see the prismatic flashes wink

Just before disappearing beneath

The surface of what used to be

Before the water had become… frozen  

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Convolution

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I know things do change

And I used to worry about it  

Permanence was my balance

But I stopped noticing days

There’s only two that remain- vital   

The day when you were born

And the day I lost you from here

When bruises covered my heart

I pretend to recover somewhat

But the truth is, the hurt- goes on

There are times I can’t speak

My words are afraid at what I might say

They know I won’t hold back any longer  

I can’t be broken down… any lower   

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Connectivenss

I know deep in my heart

She’ll be the one to come

As easy as a prismatic dawn

Delicate and precious

Like she’s always been

God’s perfect angel

She’ll heal me- in a breath

With her divine touch

Whispering love to my heart                      

As her grin makes all the difference

And heaven’s gates open up

As we stroll side by side, in step   

Over the threshold of life

Daddy and daughter hand in hand…again

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