Without

I’ve never wanted to burden you

And I do understand what it is like

Navigating the perils of one’s life  

I know I have many a time or two

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I’ve chosen the folds of lone silence

To breakdown- without any witness

Few will understand my real why’s

And even fewer might dare to care

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I cannot be your hero if you’re mine

Beyond measure or any known words

Which is why I speak from my heart

I know, you know it’s what I do best

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We’re beset by miles our love overrides

Still, it’s the hardest…I’ve had to survive

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Yield

My tears are blood drops from my soul.  

I braved my heart when I was innocent

Wear nefarious scars- of my trespassers                        

Yet- forgiven things I just can’t forget

Made mistakes without a second thought

Broken what precious gift I should not

Drowned in loves tossed barren seas  

And still, I thirst beyond comparison  

Trodden the same dark paths repeatedly

While fearing- every step that I made  

Wadded in the waters of true cleansing

Still- I’m beset to an unwelcome place

And would free myself in a heartbeat  

If I could move the mountain…in me

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Necessities

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There’s simply nothing anyone

Could’ve truly said to me

That I would’ve listened to

My heart never does- you know

All part of loves lessons

I seem to put myself through

God knows, I hate the pain and still

I must choose- to love my way

Another scar, another heartache

Like all other hearts, taking baby steps

I trust, one day, I feel it in my soul

I’ll run fearlessly alongside  

Like children laughing aloud

With a love that’s been… proven true

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Heartsake

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I see now, I’ve been mistaken

All this time I thought memoirs

Of our love played eloquently

In my mind when I felt lonely

That is not the truth borne out  

Foolishly I limited love- itself

Your love in fact, stays at play

It remains imbedded within me

Every full breath of its existence

That- that is what sustains me     

Giving my existence its purpose

Vivid touches imbuing my heart      

Your precious love in continuation

Lives in my soul for… reunification

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Maintenance-free

I resign that, I was created a certain way

For a certain set of unknown reasons

Till my skills are required in their moments

Which are often performed as impromptu

Like a refined humanized, self-fine tuner

Albeit, they’ve have aided my triumphs

However, they’ve also aided in my downfalls

I’m sure in my biased mind, I’d like to think

In some divine math it simply balances me

In a quaint fashion … I’ll never understand

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Involuntary   

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There’s this distinctive residue

That clings to me, unceasingly

And I suspect it’s some sort of

Derivative of our broken love

Bits of you that seems to remain

Filling, if you will, damaged space

Where bits of myself once reined  

Which then explains this emptiness

I feel in my being in each moment    

Where once there was none noted

Teaching me, that- just perhaps

We’d fared better had there been

No love shared between our hearts

That’s made the both of us… lessor

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Reluctant beats

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Permanent isn’t the one I expected

And I keep feeling it inside myself

Crashing between polar realities

Our dreams drowning in oceans

Incomplete doesn’t mean finished

Yet, it’s exactly where we’re at now

Letting go, of what you love the most

Feels like cruel insanity to my heart

Now, you’ve chosen for both of us

To go our separate ways- liberated    

If it wasn’t for all this mad confusion

I’d know better way to say- goodbye                     

It must be said, losing you this way

Feels more like death…  in slow motion

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Ripped  

Our song just skips now

Cause that record is broken

And that ever after is gone

Oh, I need me a long road

Going easy on my mind

Just as kind on my soul

Nowhere special is just fine

If it’s peaceful and quiet

A trip that’s long overdue

That I’ve promised myself

Where temperatures are cool

If a sun still sets in the west  

And my long shadows are true

When I stroll … on my own

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Just kept  

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Seems funny I really don’t recall

The sun feeling so warm and bright

Oh baby, I gave it my all, and more

Waiting patiently for what I needed

But you kept dismissing- all of me

I held on to every piece of myself

You took away from my wholeness

While telling me to just get over it

Though you were taking all I gave

Open and free from my bleeding heart

But I kept promising daily to myself

Eventually everything would change

And I was right, cause baby today  

 I’ve gotten over everything…missing  

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Hearted warrior  

I can carry this weight

Of darkness and it’s secrets

Do what I really must do

All by myself, always have

Believing what I feel inside

Belong to someone else- you

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If I find you

If I find you

And you find me too

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I’ll part oceans that divide us

Long enough to escape here

Then let it close itself behind

When I’m finally on your side

 I’ve overcome the taste of fear

And the pain of all these scars  

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If I find you

If I find you

And you find me too

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I’m feeling cold clear to my bones

I’m so tired behind these eyes

I pretend it doesn’t bother me

I’ve felt you call for too long

But I won’t surrender yet

Not until I’m in your arms

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When I find you

When I find you  

When I find…you’re my home  

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