Too good

Like magic

We were there

Where love lives forever

Inside each other’s hearts

For unknown reasons we got scared

So, we ran away from each other

And the magic disappeared

But never left our hearts

How I dream of us then

How I dream of there

I wish I didn’t regret

I wish we had it again

I wish you still loved me like that

Cause my love…came back

Misty notes

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I’d watch my breath- dissipate

As I sat out in the twilight fog

The burbling brook playing notes

Shivering myself near half dead

Memories and emotions burned on

Whispering thoughts of you in the air

Secretly praying you’d get them

Hopefully, before they lose their way

No one ever mattered as much as you

I always thought you were an angel

And if I were to tell the gospel truth

It is a hell of a thing to lose- as a human

I can see the colors of dawn coming on

I really could use a warm hug… love me

Used to believe

Thought I was running away from you

I just ran from what you do- to me

Until one day my weary shadow

Finally took the time to tell me the truth

I was running from myself

And everything I could become

Running from the illusion I thought I was

But mostly, everything I never could be

Believing only in others’ make-believe

Believing that I was never good enough

Believing in all the shameful ugliness

Like- I could never be loved

Now I fully understand, I’m better than that

And today I love me… just as I am

Coeur à coeur

Out of the moon’s witnessing

I humbly wept upon my knees

My essence, weary and broken

As days, weeks- years passed by

Time after time, I was tempted

To become angry and lay blame

To point- at the world at large

My rented heart hushed my ego

I evaded my own tragic selfishness

I sequester myself from the world

I closed my eyes in contemplation

As I sat alone in the darken silence

Finally, I requested an audience

Whispers answered… I am here!

Victor’s

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(When you find the courage to forgive the world, you must also forgive yourself.)

Finally, after all this time

We are here, face to face in truth

Smiling at this opportunity

Look how far we traveled broken

Separated by unfair circumstances

Neither of us could control , but we tried

One of us was always- letting go

Trying to keep those battle scars whole

Trying to survive, trying to do right

And here we are now in triumph

There is nothing needing to deny- anymore

It is our time to reconnect as we once were

We have been waiting to live love

My mind and heart have overcome… reunited

Taxis

These sonnets akin to my leaves

Written words by a voice in me

Slowly I’ve resigned to let go

Of my untold stories, I know

Some are written by my pain

Some are written for a change

Some are written in my blood

Some are written just because

Some are written by my shame

Some are words I can’t explain

Some are written in my tears

Some took me many of years

Everything comes in due time

My soul… whispers their flight

Deveations

Early- long before daybreak

I pack up my backpack daily

And head out to the waterside

Toting along my folding chair

I stroll until somehow- I know

I’ve found my true vantage spot

Set up an umbrella and my chair

Put on my sunglasses and hat

Then stare, at the bands of waves

Rushing towards shore- all-day

I see the prismatic flashes wink

Just before disappearing beneath

The surface of what used to be

Before the water had become… frozen

Convolution

I know things do change

And I used to worry about it

Permanence was my balance

But I stopped noticing days

There’s only two that remain- vital

The day when you were born

And the day I lost you from here

When bruises covered my heart

I pretend to recover somewhat

But the truth is, the hurt- goes on

There are times I can’t speak

My words are afraid at what I might say

They know I won’t hold back any longer

I can’t be broken down… any lower

Connectivenss

I know deep in my heart

She’ll be the one to come

As easy as a prismatic dawn

Delicate and precious

Like she’s always been

God’s perfect angel

She’ll heal me- in a breath

With her divine touch

Whispering love to my heart

As her grin makes all the difference

And heaven’s gates open up

As we stroll side by side, in step

Over the threshold of life

Daddy and daughter hand in hand…again

Love overcomes

I walked out before daylight

There was a chill- in the air

Step by step I thought to myself

What happens if no one cares?

Somewhere off in the distance

I swear I heard some whispers

I could see across the vast horizon

As the sun slowly inched near

But somewhere in the zephyrs

Were those drifting echoes of words

I thought it was rain but was only dew

Trying to collect my full attention

I stared up at the twinkling stars

Wonder a bit more in the dark

I never felt alone in all this time

But something deep inside me broke

As a tear raced down my cheek

I felt my soul inside- give a sigh

Brightness of the dawn overcame

Everything including my sight

There was no way I could see

But in all that ethereal brilliance

I felt a Holy presence- embrace me

And all my questions dissipated

It seemed to have lasted only a minute

I noticed most of the day had gone on by

I was confused as it left me far behind

I stood all that time- in the same place

And that light gently slipped away

Night had come into its silent space

Then- those echoes returned again

And I understood… what they meant

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