I admit, it stills exist
In the midst of midnight hours
I’m waken every now and again
By some connected unknown force
Only to end up gently sipping
On steamy insipid coffee in my hand
Where I catch myself sleepily staring
In present with moonlit darkness
At those sworn walls of secrets
Buried like treasure beneath
Seemingly an unblemished surface
Boasting itself a new color
Somehow, I think you’d approve
Life’s strangeness and its ever-changes
That took place, in this room
Since those ole blushing times
When you were too fast for even time
To stop and think things through
And the more your anger thought
The greater that fire within grew
The walls that shattered flying glass
Remained just as scarred as our past
All the painful things you done and said
We both knew hurt and were never true
But all that messy time aside
I can sometimes hear whispers
Of your voice, however- faint
Its reverberation unlocks my restraints
Chills overcome my body
My eyes flood with unyielding tears
I can almost feel you touch me, Darling
Like after you’d stop and realized
Your shaky hands and desperate grip
Somethings were beyond your control
How hard, how hard we both tried
To acclimate the rest of the world to us
As we stood embraced in a torn near silence
A testament to life’s unwanted perplexities
Praying to reclaim, who we were, once
Oh, you were the blossom of a lifetime
Unfurling loves naked vulnerability, to me
Perfect imperfection in too short a life
A colorful and giving essence
Whenever you opened yourself up
But like all perfect divine petals
You were tied to human reality
Grasping for air, as all flames do
In an unchangeable destiny
And as we’ve both came to learn
Sometimes Angels have to fall hard
To live love reborn…as Butterflies
Poet of the Light © 2020