Not guilty

I used to argue with my other self

That self that never believed in me

Always interfering in everything

Making my life completely chaotic

And always dragging me down

But that self is no longer around

Now- I’m not saying it was murder

But I’d call it more like self-defense

It’s not my fault, I wasn’t myself

That self was just making me crazy

I went back to check out the scene

When I got there, there was no body

Besides no evidence of any crime

I’d just claim…temporary insanity

Hertogeneity

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I may have been the next Holden Caulfield

But life intervened in a charitable fashion

That’s not to say that I hadn’t been affected

By things I experienced, witnessed, or lived

Clearly, I’d be one of the first to fully admit

People let you down, though it’s uncertain

If each time it was intentionally motivated

I error on the side of caution, to believe not

If I am truly the product of my environment

Who is it by name, to fault, to seek recompense?

What would any of that gain me now, so late;

A dying flower will still wilt away, will it not?

Rather than become an imaginary inky character

I became the outcome of myself… in real life

Out of her element

Her brown eyes captured him

The moment he walked inside

Her gaze followed his presence

As her imagination detonated

Her awareness, now a prisoner

As she imaged the two of them

Slowly strolling hand in hand

Waves rushing on a naked beach

Sun setting as the moon chased

Igniting their intimate embrace

Coupled, they slink to the sand

Where passion rose even higher

Freeing her when he asked her

“You ready to take… my order?”

Prima facie

Puffs of oyster color clouds

Floated across the skyline

Marbled with cerulean blue

As both reflected in her eyes

Inexplicably I stared intensely

Enraptured by her innate beauty

In my most indefensible moments

Her voice is certainly mellifluous

Pulling me further from myself

My throat dry, my mind jumbled

I was smitten by a spell of love

My heart panicked as I trembled

As she vividly touched my soul

Then her kiss just stole…my heart

Ambivalence

(shakes head) Just when

I thought I had said it all

I took a welcomed deep breath

The days and nights lingered

And you came back to mind

I don’t know why, now I’ve discovered

I’ve only begun to speak openly

Knowing I’m still broken

And I still hurt, just not as bad

But I’m finding my way alone

To whom I was, who I need to be

Baby steps over these deep cracks

I need desperately this path of patience

So, I can clarify any last…ambiguities

Outliers

The fashion of your alluring legs

Wading within moon lit shallows

As tinged beams of luminous reflect

Off submissiveness of warm ripples

The way our morning after sunlight

Basked in the beauty of your presence

Making its way over sleepy chasms

As I sit in awe of heavens creations

That adorable manner we hold hands

While we gaze at wonderment of stars

As if they’re all chapters of our story

Whilst unabashedly delaying any finality

I waltz on the cusp of pure immortality

Whenever I’m embraced … in your arms

Sacred Petals

She was named after a flower

That grew even in harsh winters

Solidifying her magical essence

Cloaked in a tender silky surface

Touting bold irises of ocean blues

I willingly befell to her from afar

It was something she never knew

Love beats whispered from my heart

But I was too timid to risk rejection

Desires wanted to pluck as my own

But I knew she deserved much better

Then I honestly felt I could deliver

Loving her enough to truly let her go

I set out across the vast horizons

Leaving my bleeding heart- there

Within the soils that nurtured her

Closest fashion my love could live

Forever in …the Rose left behind

#Wednesday 4 word prompt-

The rose left behind

Exhale

When I fell in love with you

I threw- caution to the wind

I’m afraid it has come to collect

This idealistic lover’s old debt

I’m not sure which is the worse

To seem selfish and go first

Or follow a heartbroken embrace

Lingering behind in pain- as last

I feel anger and sudden desperation

Come upon me in merciless waves

As if I were pulled in a caustic ocean

I want to let go, and hold on to today

The sweet taste of death is a surprise

As tears flow now from my eyes

It is time laced by all the drops

As I kiss my greatest love … (narrator softly exhales)

Inspired by Caruso

Used to

I used to love the moon at night 
Now it just some overt reminder 
There are other stars in the sky 

I used to wade into the waters 
Before water drowned me in tears 
Now I just watch it all from afar 

I’ve become estranged to believing 
At least the kind I used to trust in
Wordless, truth spoke in the eyes 

I used to love all beautiful things
Old, broken or misused by others 
Long before my whole life changed 

I used to be honest down to my bones 
But now- I can’t tell if I’ll love a lie 
That smiles and whispers: I’m alone 

I used to respect and know myself 
Before getting used to … loving hell 

.
Poet of the Light © 2021

China shop

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The sun rose up eerie that day 
Clouds seem to be at a stand still 
I really didn’t care much as all 
Smiling to wholeness of my world
As every color brought me more joy 
With remnants of those moon kisses 
Still wet and fresh upon my lips  
Then sadly- I noticed, your absence 
By then all the clouds disappeared 
Somehow, I stood there- in the rain
Felt the heat burn me in place 
My heart and mind going senseless
My lips suddenly cracked and dried 
Everything: a new shade of grey 
Even unspoken whispers couldn’t fly 
In your wake all you left behind 
Was for me to innocently sigh 
Wallow in hollowed memories
Kneel in an overwhelming disbelief
Even my inhales were half shattered  
I was just another- broken piece
Of the world your horns have ravaged  
All I am, is your… collateral damage 

.
Poet of the Light © 2021

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