Gambit

My only sun is broken

Its fire turned direction

And I- but a forest deep

Its depravity burns harsh

Its salvation all dried up

And my moon, out of site

Much like a rat’s wheel

My world still churns

For its own amusement

And I- merely a puppet

The courts seek victims

So, the jesters can play

And all the judges laugh

This was my…life stage

Beyond us

I just don’t believe you

I don’t believe you- anymore

You say that you love me

Even when you break my heart

And I just cry deeper inside

I don’t need to feel your ugly

I don’t need to feel your tiny

I don’t need- what I don’t need

I used to trust, in everything you

I used to make all your excuses too

But I can’t excuse all you’ve done

I can’t be the blind one- anymore

I know everything I need for me

As you’ve become… everything but

Abstruse

Not a day passes that I don’t

Question, why didn’t I notice

What you weren’t saying to me

Have I grown just too obtuse

And comfortable in my solitude

That I was deaf to your needs?

I felt it was a mistake to leave

Did those miles in-between- us

Damage my fatherly instincts?

Oh, I feel I’ve failed the very one

That always attentively listened

And been there during my needs

Only you and God know it now

As I alone silently wrestle …without

Morsels

Today has had a souring taste

The unexpected lingering type

You adapt to but never leaves

And its overcast weighs heavy

I’m distracted by a distraction

Staring out yesterday’s portal

If only we preserved good days

To replace the days like today

My heart cries in a near silence

Knowing I can’t dial time back

For another palatable serving

There are no returns, no refunds

Not all slices of life are equals

And not all slices get… finished

Decouple

Sometimes looking into a mirror

Is scarier than who looks back

In the fog of love, hope believes

I’m not into drawn out goodbyes

But I’m accepting everything- us

Has become our everything wrong

I assure you, it’s not easy at all

You do deserve a very happy life

But my darling, I know I do too

So, I’m honestly looking forward

By letting go of the past and you

Without having to fight each other

We’ve done more than enough of that

It’s time we go and live love… right

Consequently

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We were a fantasy come to life

I held onto you, you held onto me

We took that proverbial plunge

Flew so effortlessly on love wings

Until you’ve became so preoccupied

And slowly we’ve began our descent

Falling out of trust, losing our grip

Somewhere along the way we lost

What we love the most- about us

All those little nuances we possess

And I’ve been bleeding ever since

I keep holding on, giving all, I have

I simply can’t hold out much longer

You’re killing us… by a thousand cuts

Rememberable

I need a life change of pace

To save what’s left of my heart

I never wanted to say to you

I’m lonelier with you here- anymore

You hide inside you little world

And there’s no place for me

You’ve made that clear- repeatedly

I embarrass you in front of your friends

You devalue me for asking questions

There’s nothing I could ever do to fit in

I’ve decided I need- someone like me

That looks past my built-in flaws

Someone that talks to me fluently

Someone that loves me…blindly

Reluctant beats

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Permanent isn’t the one I expected

And I keep feeling it inside myself

Crashing between polar realities

Our dreams drowning in oceans

Incomplete doesn’t mean finished

Yet, it’s exactly where we’re at now

Letting go, of what you love the most

Feels like cruel insanity to my heart

Now, you’ve chosen for both of us

To go our separate ways- liberated

If it wasn’t for all this mad confusion

I’d know better way to say- goodbye

It must be said, losing you this way

Feels more like death… in slow motion

Ripped

Our song just skips now

Cause that record is broken

And that ever after is gone

Oh, I need me a long road

Going easy on my mind

Just as kind on my soul

Nowhere special is just fine

If it’s peaceful and quiet

A trip that’s long overdue

That I’ve promised myself

Where temperatures are cool

If a sun still sets in the west

And my long shadows are true

When I stroll … on my own

Just kept

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Seems funny I really don’t recall

The sun feeling so warm and bright

Oh baby, I gave it my all, and more

Waiting patiently for what I needed

But you kept dismissing- all of me

I held on to every piece of myself

You took away from my wholeness

While telling me to just get over it

Though you were taking all I gave

Open and free from my bleeding heart

But I kept promising daily to myself

Eventually everything would change

And I was right, cause baby today

I’ve gotten over everything…missing

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