Conventional magic

 When forever, slips away  
 In love and everything  
 We’re left, as a broken mess
 And nothing more to believe in  
 
 My heart has been shattered  
 A time or two, and too often  
 When all that really mattered
 Left me behind, unapologetically  
 
 Since when does love require  
 Loving self first, above all others  
 And since when does forever  
 Only last a little more than a day
 
 I find it eerie these days, we only see  
 Love as blame…for broken dreams
 
 Poet of the Light © 2020
 
 
 
 
 
 

Defiantly

 I want that type of relationship
 That dead grips my hand to jump
 Which inspires me to strip normal  
 And then splits itself wide- open
 Like a fresh ripen Georgia peach  
 So I can dive into it all head first  
 Degust all it’s hidden flavoring  
 Recklessly, down in the nitty gritty
 Where scars earn the legends  
 Or remain a mystery left untold
 And crawling is the only way out
 Each passing year is a lifetime lived  
 Throwing all caution to the wind
 Ignoring every second thought
 Plunging into the very deep of it
 Where real people get all messy
 And languish to get even dirtier  
 Where my only real consequence  
 Came from not having courage  
 To seize my opportunities sooner
 And simply love… unapologetically 
 
 
 Poet of the Light © 2020
 
 
   

Really

  Lately I feel like a dark cloud
 Drifting aimlessly along  
 I’d cry but I really feel empty  
 As I really miss the person  
 I had really thought you were  
 Really just goes to show you  
 First impressions can be wrong
 Going to take some adjusting
 In my mind and in my heart
 Acceptance isn’t always easy  
 And sometimes it really hurts
 Long after we’ve moved on  
 To the lie, it doesn't really matter
 Living a life of love is all I’m after
 I still believe it can really happen   
 Maybe I’ll stumbling into one
 Once this pain has really… gone  
 
 Poet of the Light © 2020
 
 
 
 

Imperfection

 Purpose sifted into bag of dust  
 Midsummer twilight sprinkled  
 With sporadic stars and clouds  
 A watchful candle- burned out
 It’s been nearly two hours since
 I slipped off in a dreamy realm
 None of which I’ll recall later  
 Sleep is becoming burdensome  
 A luxury I can’t seem to afford
 I burn with an inner fervor, yet
 I shiver under but a thin blanket
 Charity of the lunar moonlight  
 That’s found me here somehow
 Her scent still present but absent  
 Only faint whispers of her voice  
 Remain lingering within my mind
 There’s vacant cold beside me
 Reminiscent of late fall shadows
 As the afternoon sun is falling off
 It wasn’t always like this, before
 When the promise of her words  
 Were spoken in a truthful silence  
 Of her actions, her kisses, touch  
 Now- all that is gone, she’s gone  
 And I’m left to carry on here, alone  
 With no compass guiding direction
 I- merely a heart… without an echo
 
  Poet of the Light © 2020  
 
 
   
 
 

Déjà vécu

  I’ve been here before  
 Pivotal points of a heart 
 That euphoric slippery slope 
 That fine line threshold
 Helplessly teeter tottering
 Between cravings and desire
 More times than I can count
 Times when I was beset  
 By raging emotions of youth
 That period of inexperience
 Conflating mere fondness
 With wild idealist dreams
 That burned into smoldering ashes  
 Not understanding the difference  
 Those battles between fire and water  
 Getting caught up in my turbulence
 That lack of controlled passion
 For what matters best- a heart   
 But, I’ve matured since  
 In more fluent ways than one   
 And I resisted temptation  
 When I seen, yours leaning   
 Ever compelling closer to me  
 Snubbing my younger fire of self  
 I will even so much as admit   
 In fact I repelled you a bit  
 Dampened the reality at hand
 Because, in matters of love
 Everything- matters to me
 Lust never bequeaths- love  
 So if you metamorphosed  
 Into a beautiful fleeting butterfly
 Never to to be seen again  
 Then I’d know immediately
 You’re not what’s best for my heart
 But were just a hearted dream, at most
 And I’m still asleep in my life… alone  
 
 
 Poet of the Light © 2020  
 
 
 
 
 
 

Quality

 
 On most complicated days  
 I’m easy, in a good way  
 Don’t have time to play games  
 I’m a simple man  
 With a reckless heart
 That follows loves path  
 Wherever it may go
 Even if it gets, burned again  
 But one thing is for sure
 I’ve been hurt  
 More times than I can count
 Or I can love, with a love
 That last forever and a day
 Only takes time, to find out  
 But what I can’t do  
 Is use love or you  
 The way others know how to
 And then forget your name 
 I know how to own my mistakes
 I’ve cried, with the best of them     
 I’m a simple dreamer  
 Who wants a simple love  
 To live a simple life  
 With someone, who feels right  
 Between bad and good 
 Mischief and pinch of Hollywood
 With a soft and firm heart  
 But doesn’t mind at all  
 If we fall in a world of love  
 Whatever that looks like  
 Maybe float out on the lake  
 Sing happy foolish songs  
 When the moon comes out
 With nothing to do  
 Except find a few
 Of whispered- I love you’s
 Written in the stars
 Eons and eons ago by someone   
 Or simply lay
 In one another arms  
 Drifting on the waterscape
 Until the morning sun  
 Wakes us up late in the afternoon
 Wouldn’t matter to anyone  
 As long as our love story  
 Is written by us… and a simple one  
 
  Poet of the Light © 2020  
 
 

Customized

 I skipped out of church that Sunday  
 There was a drunken gray overcast
 The air was heavy and foul scented
 I climbed up on the concrete railing  
 Perching myself like some giant bird 
 Looking down at the deceptive water
 Waiting for fates sudden gusty breeze  
 To save my frail courage from failing
 But on that morning, it was windless
 Any other day would’ve been windy  
 My bad luck or was fate still toying,
 With my mind, my heart, my life?
 I remained seated watching, waiting
 For answers I couldn’t find elsewhere  
 Hours past, none came as I felt dull
 I stood and turned to get back down
 Feeling defeated even more when  
 My feet landed, a gust of wind came
 And removed my hat; it fell down
 Upon the same watery surface below
 In that moment all I could surmise  
 Was my hat was gifted mercy I wasn’t
 Strange thing to compare oneself to  
 An inanimate object such as a cap  
 Frustrated I quickly turned in disgust
 At myself, my thoughts and lost hat
 I slipped off the walkway curb and fell
 Into the street in front of a screeching
 Car that came to rest inched from me
 A panicked lady rushed out of the car
 To my side to offer triage or prayers
 Her eyes were filled with teared terror  
 Thinking the worst had just happened  
 She knelt down by me; a crowd formed
 Her hands were shaking, yet she was  
 Focused on only my personal well being
 My heart filled with embarrassing guilt
 As I tried to reassure her, I was just fine  
 In hopes everyone else would move on
 And relieve her of any self-indictment
 She helped me to my feet and offered  
 A ride, then she insisted I drive if I felt
 Up to the task, and I eagerly obliged  
 It was the least I could do for my victim
 Of my childish tactics lead by emotions  
 We hadn't gotten more than a few blocks  
 When I realized she had been drinking
 And was still crying and apologizing  
 I told her everything will be alright  
 But she still assert it was all her fault  
 She had been depressed about her life  
 And was on her way over the bridge  
 With the intention of drive off the  
 Quay in her car after drinking all  
 Night long to muster up the courage
 Her sobbing increased and begged  
 Me to forgiver her, I wept myself
 To the point I had to pull over and  
 Confess my own foolishness to her
 After out tears and shame subsided  
 We agreed to go for coffee and talk
 Four hours later I pulled up at my  
 Address where a young man had  
 Been sitting and holding my cap  
 In his hand, I was puzzled at first
 When he explained he found it by
 The riverbank stuck on a tree branch
 He retrieved it and looked inside to
 Notice my name and address was
 Inscribed inside on a tag sewn in
 Which read, if found return it to
 My name and address for a reward
 I had forgotten my mother sent that
 And as a joke sewn that inside due  
 To me always losing hats as a child  
 I gladly offer him a ten dollar reward
 He happily accepted and headed out
 Then he stopped and said the most  
 Peculiar thing to both of us smiling
 “You know, with a little more faith
 And trust in the lord, he wouldn’t have
 Needed to do things the hard way for  
 Just to make both of your lives- happy “
 Bewildered I tried to stop him but-  
 He simply ignored my shouted request
 We wed at the church seven months later
 And that same young man also appeared  
 Waving and smiling in the crowd only to  
 To disappear a mere few seconds later  
 We both turned to each other… and grinned     
 
 
 Poet of the Light © 2020  
 
 
   

Lost innocence

 
  I remember, when we were young
 In love and happy with each other
 When all we could afford was- love  
 But after so long, something happened
 Now all you want to own is everything  
 And we lost all we were, to each other
 Where’s that girl I fell in love with?  
 How did she disappear before my eyes?
 We grew up and outgrew ourselves  
 Oh how- I’ve wish again and again  
 We were still existing on that love  
 We cherished, when we were… kids  
 
 
 Poet of the Light © 2020  
 
 

Beingness

  She’ll just come on
 Like a tundra dawn
 To move this mountain   
 Soft and so soothing
 Welcomed enveloping  
 Slow and very gentle 
 Colorful and determined   
 Taking my breath away
 Like a rogue frigid breeze  
 Making fires in me, rage  
 My soul can’t help but sing
 In baritone, Amazing Grace  
 Inside my heart and mind
 With every beat I create  
 She’s someone- love sent  
 She’s God’s gifted… evidence  
 
 
 Poet of the Light © 2020