Tidbits of a Tuscan colored sun Adorn the wintry gray horizon Beset by a most dividing pall haze As ghostly clouds and wild fog Chase one another in mere silence Providing them rhythm and reason True to life and their own nature I strive to rediscover for myself Since absence of loves presence I’ve transformed into loneliness And became too accustomed to These caustic cold breeze kisses Playing havoc on my numb cheeks Liken a tall oak tree, overburdened Dew can still seep down my face Transplanted in some remote forest For all the broken, lost or unwanted Where few visit or care of recovery Caught between life and hibernation My frayed heart awaits... rejuvenation Poet of the Light © 2021
Category: abused
Unsuitable

They were bright colorful threads Emitting from the core of my soul But you strained them all beyond Their fraying strength; they broke Until they were jumbled fragments To you, they were merely words You converted into a big joke And my heart, a laughing stock Causing my love to easily loosen That grip of that fabric, you were One little simple stitch at a time Dragging along, as unwantedness In dirt and far behind, your shadow Then fallen off and away I stayed Becoming lost from your… forever Poet of the Light © 2020
Moon shadows

Here I am, recovering At a slow pace, inside of me Between the dark shades Of foolishness and shame Far from your cutting words Out of your reach forever Oh girl, you really hurt me Down deep inside of my soul You’ll never know- just how bad Cause I’m never taking you back And these scars will remind me Sometimes, the pain wins And I hide behind the lie, I’m fine When I’m crumbling again Right there center of my heart Where your silhouette chases After my inner feelings And withdrawal of your touch, haunts The darker corners of my mind Where I let you pretend, to love me More than I did, to myself But those days are long over Its only nights I have… trouble with Poet of the Light © 2020
La vie

In depths of my own dark dearth All my hungers, my thirst- stalled I stayed unmoved and unnurtured Safely imprisoned within myself Until I heard your… whispers call Poet of the Light © 2020
Torturers

I’m fully guilty and I own it We send our hearts outwards To find and enjoy love, life Short of knowing everything And ill prepared to effectuate What we demand of it...daily Poet of the Light © 2020
Grey going black
It should be criminal How you do me this way I can see it all now You don’t want my love I’m just your passing time thing To replace what you’ve lost A temporary kind of ghost Keeping you from going insane How vulgar you’ve made me Like an infection spreading Now I need someone else To be vulgar for me A plaything to keep on a string Whenever my emotions get to me And I’m missing that touch Of whispers caring bout me I miss the shivers you gave to me When I first believed My mind is slowing dying In a gray pall of reality Because my heart is broken And my cure left me on the floor Not even one little taste Unsatisfied in every way In the darken pain of… unloved Poet of the Light © 2020
In significance

Another time, another life I could be someone else living On the other side of losing love Where the sun shines just right And I sleep intertwined in limbs Of the woman that saves me everyday Conversations, all the things you don’t say Are like echoes returning Repeating inside my foolish mind And I don’t know why- as if They’re trying to say something else Maybe, none of it means a damn thing Foolish dreamers always get hurt Believing in lofty miracles Just to keep hope alive inside Instead of realizing, they're not enough Of all the things she keeps needing That she only finds, with someone else She’s crying again, another tonight He’s hurting her, every bruised emotion Lies and manipulations of words Shattering her heart and dreams Making her feel lost and empty- alone Instead of loved and truly wanted...forever Poet of the Light © 2020
Retardation
I’ve long gown tired of these Immoral tossed out, drive by rescues Of disingenuous platitude utterances Being the new normal compensation Temporal self-serving people now offer Playing hero in their ensuing stories told Instead of authentic human compassion Only produced from an empathetic heart Inherently true in nature...as truth of love Poet of the Light © 2020
Patented
It’s bewildering: synchronicity
Stumbling over that threshold
Of someone else’s
Into the cold sobering air
Of reality; that waking sensation
That numb and yet accidental
Humiliation, all rolled into one moment
Experienced simultaneously
Wanted or not, shattering your delusion
Circumstances make for romantic fools
Time and time again over the ages
After you started believing in a love possibility
That would defy all odds of probability
But- instead find yourself facing- it not
Standing alone in that never ending moment
That you don’t have a chance in hell
To sum it all up, mildly
Not only are they silently rejecting you
But you have to fully admit
And responsibly evict your unwelcome self
As one of those “good ones” again
Another scar for your souls sleeve
Seen and praised for all your realness
You and your revealed heart of gold title
Are left in as a dark shivering of an answer
As not good enough to be the one wanted
And now you’re forced to silently…move on
.
Poet of the Light © 2020
Until then

When your life has become but a fog
And you struggle and stumble each day
Because you’ve nothing left to lean on
Let me be the one you come to…
.
When those close leave you behind
And the stars remain hidden at night
As the dark covers you in silence
Let me be the one you come to…
.
When conversations have run amuck
Or no one understands your bad luck
Is carrying you further from yourself
Let me be the one you come to…
.
When your heart become broken
By those who mattered most then
And leave you to clean their mess
Let me be the one you come to…
.
When your only embrace is cold
But it is making you more numb
And troubles follow your fears
Let me be the one you come to…
.
When love doesn’t seem to exist
No mater where you’ve looked for it
And you feel lost, empty and alone
Let me be the one you come to…
.
When you are too tired to even walk
Because your journey been so tough
Let me hold you awhile to find rest
Let me be a light for your darkness
Let me be the best one then… instead of them
.
Poet of the Light © 2020