Captors vs saviors

Other visiting seasons: dissimilar

The ones of interchanging parallels

Without certainty which is which

I may feel more like a faint hologram

Switched on or off by apathetic eyes

Passed through like casual darkness

Vacant despite my obvious presence

Political prisoners have more rights

A voice that’s attentively listened to

Even if the prisoner’s demise is preset

Loved ones are the worst of captors

Stealing our forgiveness and hearts

Still, I pray daily for no negotiator

True self can’t succumb to be…lessor

Cornerstone

I’ve accepted as I learned

Over my anguished time

How to recognize this- me

This wreckage I’ve become

Familiarity with forced change

I sought not- as some trade-off

Of my once beloved dreams

And all those dreams remain

Hidden inside safely buried deep

So when I feel broken, or alone

I visit and fully embrace them

To remind each one- individually

They’ll never be forgotten by me

They’re my sanctuary… my peace

Requisite

I walked in a million waves

That crashed on barren beaches

Waiting to be quenched- once

Finding only remnants of lives

I lived but inside secret dreams

And I bore a thousand sunburns

Standing next to you but you

Were just some passing moon

I believed was sent to guide me

Eventually, I came to realize

You’re not the source I’ve needed

And my life grew darker- again

It’s defeating when even lies, lie

But you believe them…to survive

Reconciliation

It was a heart-wrenching epiphany

To be staring face to face at- truth

So long I’ve subsisted without you

Only at that moment had I recalled

Things that mattered to you at all

I’m uncertain when my care faltered

Or threshold I must’ve tripped over

I’m overcome by overdue guiltiness

And today of all days the bill is due

I’ve no excuse- just my humiliation

More broken promises are fruitless

I’m duty-bound to offer up something

In practical purpose, I must be better

Answering to a mirror… more often

Oddities

We swam within the same gulf

Of darkness and inner solitude

Until life threw us both together

I saw hope in your eyes reflecting

Somehow that drew us even closer

It was the warmth of you I loved

Until you turned dark and frigid

Then, I settled for your coldness

Fragments of what we once were

Now in your absence, I’ve nothing

But mere traces of your memories

I sew together, make them tangible

That one day I may well use them

To escape madness of … your love

Surrenders

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At times- sorrow is all I have

Missing you is an understatement

I’ve never before admitted this

Once an hour I lose my breath

As I drown in thoughts of you

Sometimes I let your memories

Capture me and hold me…under

Facetiously

Baby, I know you get angry

And say things you don’t mean

So, if you’re really going to go

I won’t hold you back, but

Just kiss my last breath away

Give me that as a last memory

But before you leave me here

Save me that pain and misery

We both know what will follow

Don’t make my heart bleed out

Don’t make me suffer forever

Don’t make my tears a river

Don’t make me beg for a mercy

That only makes me feel … unloved

Redundant

I will honestly confess

There is this strangeness

That befalls me now and then

Having fully accepted a fact

I’ve been altered- changed

From my intended true self

Broken by nefarious events

People have unfairly wielded

In my mind and my life, itself

There remains that most subtle

Yet, unanswered probing question

Rise up in my fullest of emotions

Despite their ignorant intrusions

Have I become… my true person?

Consequently

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We were a fantasy come to life

I held onto you, you held onto me

We took that proverbial plunge

Flew so effortlessly on love wings

Until you’ve became so preoccupied

And slowly we’ve began our descent

Falling out of trust, losing our grip

Somewhere along the way we lost

What we love the most- about us

All those little nuances we possess

And I’ve been bleeding ever since

I keep holding on, giving all, I have

I simply can’t hold out much longer

You’re killing us… by a thousand cuts

Yield

My tears are blood drops from my soul.

I braved my heart when I was innocent

Wear nefarious scars- of my trespassers

Yet- forgiven things I just can’t forget

Made mistakes without a second thought

Broken what precious gift I should not

Drowned in loves tossed barren seas

And still, I thirst beyond comparison

Trodden the same dark paths repeatedly

While fearing- every step that I made

Wadded in the waters of true cleansing

Still- I’m beset to an unwelcome place

And would free myself in a heartbeat

If I could move the mountain…in me

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